Current location:	My Effecientcy
Current mood:	delighted with life
Current music:	lifes a bitch- NAS

I dont understand people sometimes. I dont understand why people can be so rude at times, and act so self centerd about things. I never really understood how some people could be so unsecure about things in general and never give you the benifit of dought and never trust you. It's always constant disbelief and dought. I hate that so much. This coming from people who have always claimed that they loved you at one point and they would always be there for you. I honstly cant wait to meet a person that would actully take your word for things with out the constant struggle of dought. Unsecure people make me mad. I've learned you can't really depend on people to solve your problems beauase nothing really ever happens. No one can comfort you the way that you expect to be comforted....

I start school soon, and Im excited. My life has become Gym and work then sleep, and I like it that way for now. I do tend to feel lonley from time to time but I guess freinds and finding a significant other to be with can all happen later on. I have no rush for anything right now. I like my independence. At the end of the day I know that one day something goood would hopefully happen soon enough. Ive been stressed as FUCK latley considering all the drama that has been going on, with the car accident, my car bieng no longer functional, my weekly Dr. Visits to the chiprocator to fix the curvurture in my neck and spine that the accident caused, the fact that I no longer live with my mother, and some othre family situation BUT the truth is Im not letting that shit get to me one bit. I look forward for to many shit and honstly I cant wait. I want money and I want my success. I support myself AND THATS IT.

So work has been great, Im very please by the amount of money ive been getting.

Going to the Gym everyday has made me realzed what hard work can do, because ive lost 25 pounds with in last month and half. Ive gotten my nutruion back on track, and I love how i can fit into smaller clothing. Im proud to say that ive went to 220 to 185 lbs and I feel great. Now I just neeed to work on my six pack which is slowly getting there and I need to work on my muscle tone.

My schooling........ IT STARTS in JAN 7th and I cant wait to start studying sports medicine, and go and start taking PRE MED and one day HOPFULLY getting a phd and as a sports medical physisicon working on football teams and treating injurys... UGHHHH how excited it makes me every single time I write my dreams.